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August 16 Yay!Today I saw a huge rainbow when I left home for work. It was the largest one I've ever seen.
Three videogames I bought last monday will very likely arrive today; those are Dragon Quest IV, Dragon Quest VII and Slime Morimori Dragon Quest.
There's also a chance I'll be promoted to a position of "leadership" inside our team at work.
I'm happy today.
César. July 31 Wow squared!I guess my visit to Carlos's house wasn't so good after all, since his dad didn't take it well when Carlos told him we're boyfriends (which he already knew, but I think he could still live in denial as long as his son didn't tell him personally). But Carlos took it rather well, so it was a good thing.
Fabien will not move in to my house, which is cool because I'll still have all that space for myself, but is not so cool because I will still have to pay for everything on my own...
Yesterday I finally told Carlos I love him. I've always had trouble saying the 'L' word, but this time it was easy. I felt no doubts whatsoever, and I am no longer afraid of loving someone. Thanks for making me feel this way, my love
 !César. July 24 Wow!This was a wondeful weekend!
I met my "in-laws", and it went so much better than anyone could ever have imagined.
Also, I found out that sleeping without sex can be cool, too (if there's plenty of it after waking up, that is).
There's the chance a teammate will move in to live with me. I'm used to living alone and having the house all to myself, but I sure could use the extra money, so whatever happens, I'm okay with it. Problem is, I am attracted to this guy (my boyfriend knows it, though). It'll be hard to see him at home every day
 ...César. July 07 Happy...I'm happy.
I can rest easy now because Felipe Calderón won the elections. I didn't want to think about what shit Andrés López would have done if he won. I know he doesn't know how to lose with dignity and will do the only thing people from his party are good at, complain about everything and throw tantrums; but that doesn't matter, since I knew he'd do that if he lost, and things would be infinitely worse had he won...
Also, mom is okay after her surgery, with no trace of cancer or anything, so I'm doubly happy for that.
And these past weeks I've had a wonderful time with my boyfriend. I didn't believe I could feel so good being with someone, but I guess I must believe it now, since I'm living it. I think a lot of it comes from finally being happy with myself, after having undergone a stage of growth in my life, although most of the credit goes to him, because he's a magnificent human being. I can't complain, I guess I've been lucky when it comes to boyfriends.
César. June 07 ...I will draw a Marvel, DC, Dragon Quest, Final Fantasy, Dragon Ball, Sailor Moon or Spyboy commission for the first person who posts a comment to this entry (*).
César.
(*) Requests may be subject to restrictions. June 03 I'm happy (and unhappy)...Yesterday I bought new shoes, a new Tommy Hilfiger shirt, new Dockers pants and a new Tommy Hilfiger swimsuit, so I am happy.
But there's a chance my housemate Javier will have to move to the USA for a longer time than he did on recent months, so probably I'll be in a position where I'll need to find a new housemate ASAP. I simply cannot pay for the house expenses on my own...
César. June 02 Oh, brother...Bro came home last weekend. Sis-in-law came, too.
We had a nice time. Didn't go out because there was not much time and they were tired (I was tired, too; still am).
This weekend my friends Oscar and Danae will get married
 !!!So it's partay
 weekend!!!César. A to Z!A - Available: Yes; not ready to start anything yet, though; just give me some more time...
A - Age: 26. A - Annoyance: My annoyance factor over others is unmeasurable; if you mean my pet peeves, it is people who lie and people who automatically assume I am lying. B - Best friends: Next question!
B - Bar: Anyone where I can dance, mostly electronic and reggae music. B - Birthday: Every march 28th. C – Crush: Heh heh, it is not safe to write it here, but I like someone (straight guy) from work...
C - Car: None right now. C - Cat: None right now. D - Dead pet's name: Poochie.
D - Dad's name: Oscar. D - Dog: None, my mom has one, though; she calls her Cosita, I call her Perro. E - Easiest persons to talk to: Myself.
E - Eggs: Fried. E - Email: Please. F – Favorite color: Green; is there another?
F - Food: Burritos, hamburgers, pizza, chocolate cake. F - Foreign languauge: English (and japanese and french). G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Gummies!
G - God: Love. G - Good time: Every time. H - Hair color: Mine? Very dark brown... Others'? I'd say blond or dark blond, but I just discovered that most of the guys I like have dark hair, too.
H - Height: 190 cm, approximately. H - Happy: Sometimes; at the very least, content. I - Ice cream: Chocolate.
I - Instrument: Recorder, guitar and two-finger piano. I - Idol: Gloria Estefan. J - Jewelry: None; just wooden necklaces.
J - Job: Software engineer. J - Joke: Smart ones. K - Kids: Like them for about fifteen minutes; hate them after that.
K - Karate: I wish. K - Kung fu: I wanted to train this when I saw my young nephews doing kung fu; also because Sie Kensou (from Psycho Soldier and King of Fighters) knows kung fu; needless to say, I never got into it. L - Longest car ride: From Torreon to Toluca, getting lost in San Luis Potosi, around 13 hours.
L - Longest relationship: Like, love relationship? Around 4 or 5 months from beginning to end, but it all went down long before then. L - Love: It takes time; none right now (not counting love for family and friends). M - Milk flavor: Chocolate or natural.
M - Mother's name: María. M - Movie last watched: X-Men: The Last Stand. N - Number of siblings: One.
N - Northern or southern: Different meaning for me, since I am mexican; northern mexican. N - Name: César Alberto Hernández Meraz. O - One wish: For all my friends to be happy.
O - One phobia: Cockroaches and fear of falling. O - One dream: I would like to fly (and be invulnerable, in case I fall). P - Parents, married or divorced: Happily married and in love.
P - Part of your appearance you like best: Sometimes my hair; I like my height, my shoulders and my expression, but only when I rehearse it in front of the mirror, alone. P - Part of your personality you like best: Being a cocky smart alec. Q - Quote: No quotes.
Q - Question for that: Question I do not understand, this one. Q - Quick or slow: Depends. R - Reason to smile: Almost anything; simple things are the best to smile.
R - Reality TV show: Stripsearch. R - Right or left: Right. S - Song last heard: Secreto de amor, by Víctor García.
S - Season: Winter. S - Sex: Not needed, but nice to have. T - Time you woke up: First at 6:30, then again at 7:10.
T - Time now: 9:45. T - Time for bed: 0:00. U - Unknown fact about me: I sometimes like a girl or two, but they have to be very cute.
U - Unicorns: Are cool. U - U are: A lot of things. V - Vegetable you hate: Spinachs.
V – vegetable you love: Not-cooked carrots. V - View on politics: It is a joke and waste of resources. W - Worst habits: To correct people who do not appreciate being corrected.
W - Where are you going to travel next: Torreon. W - Why are you happy: Just am; because I am alive, perhaps. X - X-rays: Would be cool, but perhaps not; you may see a lot of gross things if they are not controlled.
X - X-rated porn: Hot. X - X-tra special someone: Not at the moment. Y - Year you were born: 1980.
Y - Year it is now: 2006. Y - Yellow: Hard to wear properly; I sometimes achieve it, though; it takes guts and attitude. Z – Zoo animal: Raccoon!
Z - Zodiac: Aries. Z - Zoolander: What's that? César. May 26 Hikaru Utada - Simple and clean.You're giving me too many things, Lately you're all I need, You smiled at me and said: Don't get me wrong I love you But does that mean I have to meet your father? When we are older you'll understand What I meant when I said "No, I don't think life is quite that simple". When you walk away You don't hear me say "Please, oh baby, don't go"; Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight, It's hard to let it go. The daily things that keep us all busy Are confusing me That's when you came to me and said: Wish I could prove I love you But does that mean I have to walk on water? When we are older you'll understand It's enough when I say so and maybe some things are that simple. When you walk away You don't hear me say "Please, oh baby, don't go"; Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight, It's hard to let it go. Hold me, Whatever lies beyond this morning Is a little later on, Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all, Nothing's like before.
César. May 23 Letter...I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male. César. May 22 A happy little tale, taken from the Dragon's Den's Kevin...Once upon a Time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment.
When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said - Richness, can you take me with you? - Richness answered - No, I can't... There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you.
- Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel - Vanity, please help me! - I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat - Vanity answered.
Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her! Suddenly, there was a voice - Come Love, I will take you. - It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder her name. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way.
Love realizing how much he owed the elder asked Knowledge, another elder - Who helped me? - It was Time - Knowledge answered. - Time? - asked Love. - But why did Time help me?
- Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered - Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is. César. Mom's surgery...My mom's uterus will be ablated on july 4th.
Her papanicolau and biopsy tests came positive, but if the uterus is removed soon, there may not be further problems.
I will be home (my parents') a few days before then, but will not stay for the surgery.
César. May 17 Hail...Yesterday I accompanied Claudia when she went to have her hair cut. Since she had a very cool new digital camera, we started taking some photographs; I may upload them later this month.
When we were going out, it started hailing
 !Both she and I like things a little "rough", so we decided to walk outside. It was definitely fun for a while, even when the ice pellets started to hurt us
 . But the fun was over when we had no way through to where we were going except for crossing dirty water, which got inside my shoes... It was so disgusting...But even that part was kind of fun, too.
César. Jack Johnson - Upside Down...Who's to say what's impossible?
Well, they forgot this world keeps spinning And with each new day I can feel a change in everything, And as the surface breaks reflections fade But in some ways they remain the same, And as my mind begins to spread its wings There's no stopping curiosity. I want to turn the whole thing upside down, I'll find the things they say just can't be found; I'll share this love I find with everyone, We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's songs; I don't want this feeling to go away. Who's to say I can't do everything? Well, I can try and as I roll along I begin to find Things aren't always just what they seem. I want to turn the whole thing upside down, I'll find the things they say just can't be found; I'll share this love I find with everyone, We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's songs; This world keeps spinning and there's no time to waste, Well, it all keeps spinning spinning round and round and... Upside down, We'll sing and dance and spread this love around, I don't want this feeling to go away. Please don't go away, Is this how it's supposed to be? César. May 16 More photographs...Check my 2006 photo album. I just uploaded a few pictures of me acting (and looking) geeky.
I do not look like that usually, I swear
 !César. May 15 I'm warming up to this MSN Space thing...Rain season has started in Aguascalientes. I love rain season.
Today is payday. Finally!
That guitar I bought left me broke
 . And it seems it was all for nothing, anyway... Well, it won't hurt to learn to play, but now I'll do it for myself.See you.
César. May 13 New photographs...I went to Ollín's yesterday, and she (finally) gave me those pics of me she took months ago.
I uploaded them in a new gallery (2005). I hope you like them.
César. May 11 I suck at this...So many years keeping my LiveJournal spoiled me, now I don't know how to manage this stupid MSN Space.
I don't know how often I'll write here, but we'll see about that
 ...Since I don't get on MSN that often (and won't until I get my own home personal computer) I believe this space will not be updated so much.
For now I'll just configure a few things before I go home to watch Desperate Housewives
 .See you all.
Love you (not really, just perhaps a few of you).
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